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Hmmm well it’s going. I always hate the story as I’m writing it. I’m not sure why, but it’s my thing now. I can’t seem to help it. I loathe every word, think it’s the worst piece of shit ever. I finish a story and think this will be my last because I’m going to get fired for writing crap.

And then this weird things happen. I pick up the book later and I read it and I don’t remember writing THIS story. I can’t remember why I hated it so much. It’s like someone else wrote it. I’m just waiting for the day, however, when I hate it all the way through and STILL hate it when I pick it up later. Then I’m screwed.

I’m not sure if I love or hate Songbird yet. I don’t think I’m far enough into it where it hits me. I love it in theory. Love the concept and story arc, but what’s in my head is always a far cry from getting it down on paper. Sometimes it makes it, sometimes it doesn’t. :dunno:

but s’rsly, Vegas kicked my ass and not in a good way. Yesterday I was SO tired. I dragged all day. But when I go to bed last night? Could. Not. Sleep. :dunno:

I laid there. And laid there. And laid there some more. Got up. Worked awhile. Went back to bed. Got up. Worked some more. Sent off some stuff to my agent at 3 in the morning. Today I was talking to her and she laughed and asked me what the hell I was doing emailing her at 3 in the morning. Then she informed me I was obviously overtired which makes sense in a twisted sort of way.

I got to sleep after four then had to get up to take the kids to school. Told myself I’d just go back to bed when I got home. So I crawled in. Could. Not. Sleep. :passedout:

I’ve gotten squat done this week because I’ve been too busy dragging ass and whining. I’m just hoping to hell I can sleep tonight. :pray:

So I got back from Vegas around 8 in the morning yesterday. Our flight left Vegas around 1:30am and we got into Houston close to 6 local time. By the time we got home, it was after 8 and I was entering the coma stage. I caught a few hours sleep but got up because I hadn’t seen my kiddos in five days and they were wanting lots of hugs and snuggles and of course the PRESSIES :lol2:

By 8pm last night I didn’t even know my name so I passed out.

The trip? A lot of fun. Played lots of poker, caught a few shows, kicked ass at single deck, avoided the slots at all costs. (I hate those things)

But my desk? Gah, piles and piles of shit. Ton of mail to go through. I also have galleys for Sweet Persuasion, Line edits for Amber Eyes and copy edits for The Tycoon’s Elusive Lover. Yes, all at the same time. Amber Eyes is due like now and the other two later in the week. I also have a synopsis and blurbs to write like now.

Going back to bed is totally an option, right?

I started on Songbird tonight. I had to take a break from the super sekrit project because all that was left was a synopsis and I’d rather write an entire novel than face that torture. For someone who writes like me, it’s nearly impossible to write a synopsis when you dont KNOW what the hell happens until you get there. Still, I am not one to admit defeat ever. I will beat the bastard down. It just won’t be tonight :lol2: Or tomorrow…

I’m not trying to be all secretive about Songbird. It’s just that I haven’t narrowed down any descriptions to something manageable to post. And well there’s that whole not knowing everything that happens until I get there. I have the nuts and bolts and that’s what’s important.

It’s going to be a really emotional story. It deals with some issues some of my past books haven’t and it makes me a little achy as I start to write it. It’s all about love, rejection, love, loss, love again, acceptance, forgiveness, hope but mostly just love. And faith. And trust. Losing someone you love and picking up the pieces. Learning to survive. Being loved when you don’t feel you deserve it. Learning to forgive yourself.

Yep. That’s pretty much the story in a nutshell :hug:

I’m grumpy today and a result Im sure Im not very pleasant to be around. I’m trying very hard to get as much of the shit that’s piled up on my virtual desk out of the way as possible before hubby and I leave for Vegas this week. Can I just say how much I cannot freaking WAIT to get out of here?

So Im grumpy and irritable and easily distracted and I’d rather be doing just about anything other than what I am doing.

But it has tob be done so I need to just :stfu: and deal.

:nunchuk:

It’s always fun to start something new. There’s always a certain excitement in creating something from nothing and shaping characters and a story from the ground up. And no, not working on Micah yet. He’s still brewing. I’m actually doing one of those “February” projects which means something that isn’t contracted. I want to finish this proposal before I leave next week for Vegas (oh I cannot WAIT for Vegas) Im looking forward to some time off the way a starving dog eyes a T-bone.

But Micah…soon. Songbird and Sevren’s Rule also soon. My brain is going to take a week’s vacation in Vegas and I’ll come back all refreshed and ready to burn rubber :rockthefuckon:

Yesterday we went to Houston for the day. My daughter’s birthday was earlier in the week and she wanted to go ice skating and shopping so she brought a friend of hers with her and the entire family spent the day in the mall. OMG just kill me now.

Today my middle child has a baseball scrimage and it drizzled all morning so the fields should be nice and muddy. How much more fun can you ask for? A fun scrimmage that doesn’t mean a thang and MUD. Weeee.

I’ll be making my last pass over Sweet Seduction today. I’ve fiddled and tweaked and mulled over certain parts and I have at least one more scene I know I want to add but for the most part, it’s done. I’m sure I’ll do much more tweakage during edits.

I’ve already started pondering Micah’s story, and even though it’s not due for awhile, I’ll probably go ahead and dive into the first few chapters while he’s still very fresh on my mind. I also have edits for Amber Eyes to do this week and *gulp* it releases in about a month and a half.

So that’s my Sunday (and the weekend) I hope yours went well!